Monday, March 14, 2005

Losing control


Today was a challenge. I thought I had everything under control up until 9 AM. The boss asked the weekly question of "how are things going? Do you need help with anything?" He seems determined to have someone else involved in doing my work.

He called me twice afterwards. Wanted a volunteer to help with scans. I asked if the volunteer would be comfortable using a computer. "Oh. You need a computer to scan? Hmm. I don't think so." I almost laughed out loud.

The second call was to inform me that the staff director's secretary would have time to help me with - what else - scans. I told him in order for that to happen, my scanner and software would need to be set up in her office. Boss said he would put a request in to the IT dept (didn't hear from them today).

So now I have time to do other things, since someone else will be handling the scanning. I don't really know how to react. I feel somewhat liberated, but at the same time, I feel like I'm losing control over my job. Maybe I'm making more out of it than it really is, but I can't help feeling ... well, helpless.

The day was busy as usual for all of us. I was so unprepared for today as far as assignments went, and because I was clueless, I mishandled some tasks and messed others up in the process. A total lack of communication made for a very trying day.

When team players are not communicating, you get confusion. And there was a whole lot of it today.

Frustrating.

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